A Love That Lasts Forever

To my dearest Knight, the love of my life, my best friend,

Three years ago I walked down the asile and committed myself and my love to you. Never once for a single moment have I come even close to regretting that decision.

You are still my best friend. The best father I know. My soul mate.

There are so many things that I love about you, the list is endless. So, I had to limit myself to 50.

50 Things I Love About the Knight

1. He's handsome
2. He makes me laugh
3. He changes diapers
4. He cooks dinner
5. He helps me clean the house
6. He does all the above without complaining
7. The way he can make the girls laugh until they're out of breath
8. The way he makes sure every night to take time out to play with the girls, no matter how tired/busy/grumpy he is.
9. The way he encourages me to get my businesses off the ground
10. The way he makes the sacrafices we need to make in order to keep me home with the girls
11. The way his calmness balances out my hyperness
12. Because when I told him that I was going to go out with my girls for my birthday and he will have to stay home with the kids, he said "Okay, have fun".
13. The fact that he takes the time every day first thing when he gets home from work to sit with the Mermaid and look at everything she learned that day.
14. He is one of the most creative writers I know.
15. Even though he is really competetive, he lets me win sometimes
16. He would rather stay home with me and the girls than go out to a strip club or bar
17. The way he gets along so well with my family...and if you knew my family, you'd know that was a big one.
18. He always, always has my back...even when he thinks I'm wrong
19. Because he said "um....okay" when I said "I want to have a homebirth. Do you think a birthing tub will fit in the living room?"
20. Because he said the above when I said "I want to use cloth diapers" and "I want to homeschool" and "I want to co-sleep".
21. The way he compliments me every day...sincerely
22. Because when he walks in the house, and the kids are a mess, the dishes are piled up and the living room is trashed, he'll thank me for getting the laundry done.
23. Because he knows exactly what my dreams are...and shares them
24. Because he has dreams and goals...and works towards them
25. Because, like me, he believes that life can be better than the 9-5 corporate grind
26. Because his jokes are so corny they make you laugh
27. Because even though he loves sports, he'll turn the game off to read a book to the girls if they ask him to.
28. He's pretty clean and neat for a guy
29. He likes to read great books and recommend them to me, and vice versa.
30. He likes to discuss what we're reading.
31. He was the first guy I dated that I was able to have an intelligent conversation with.
32. The way he will debate history and politics with me via email while he is at work.
33. He is so organized, he makes a spread sheet for everything
34. He knows what I am feeling, without me saying anything.
35. The way he knows that when I walk away upset, he should chase after me.
36. The way he reminds me to be fair by not chasing me if I walk away a second time.
37. The way he knows just what to say, or just what to do, without even knowing what's bothering me.
38. He likes to cuddle.
39. He likes my cooking...the rare times I do cook.
40. Even if he doesn't like it, he'll eat it anyway.
41. The way he makes me laugh hysterically...with a one sentence email.
42. When I call him at work to vent about the girls driving me crazy, he never tells me he's too busy. He just listens and let's me get it out.
43. He'll do the grocery shopping on his own, and even bring both girls with him when he senses I need a break.
44. He loves to take the girls to the park.
45. He loves the library just as much as I do.
46. Because his NetFlix Queue if filled with documentaries and historical movies.
47. If he's watching a movie and there is bad language, he'll turn it off until after the girls are in bed.
48. He's such a kick-ass labor support person.
49. He supports me in breastfeeding whole-heartedly.
50. And finally...because no matter where I am or what I'm doing, I know that he is there caring about me. And that makes me feel special.

Happy Anniversary, my Knight. Here's to many more.

A Love That Lasts Forever

Two Wonderful Years

Two years ago today, I walked down an aisle and into the next chapter of my life. Two years ago today, I stood at the alter, faced my Knight in shinning armor and pledged my unconditional love in front of our family and friends. Two years ago today, I gave my entire heart and soul to my best friend, the love of my life, my soul mate.

The Surprise:

Although we had known each other for years, the Knight and I had only been officially dating for three months when I found out I was pregnant with the Mermaid. I was terrified. So was the Knight. After our initial, OMG what are we going to do!?! reaction, I was surprised and overjoyed when he actually became very happy and excited about the thought of being a father. We briefly discussed marriage and I told him that there was no way I was going to get married just because I was pregnant. He told me he didn't want to marry me because I was pregnant; he wanted to marry me because he was in love with me. I felt the same.



The Proposal:

It was four months into my pregnancy, and due to morning sickness the only thing I could keep down was cereal. The Knight surprised me with a candle light dinner of Cheerios and milk, with roses all over the house. We danced to our song and then he popped the question. I, of course, answered yes. I was surprised at how nervous he was. His hands shook a little when he was eating.

The Wedding:

We were married June 4th, 2005, on a beautiful sunny day. Our ceremony took place on a gazebo in the center of a local town, the reception took place at a restaurant across the street. About 100, 130 people attended. The wedding got off to a late start because the limo broke down on the way to pick us up and also the Best Man got in a car accident on the way to the wedding. Thankfully he was not hurt and we were able to proceed. The wedding was gorgeous, more than I could hope for. The Mermaid was 9 months old at the time and was in attendance, in fact the Knight held her in his arms while I walked down the aisle. It was wonderful.

The Marriage:

These past two years have been the most wonderful years of my life. Nervous about how our marriage would turn out, I know now I had nothing to fear. The Knight is still my best friend, my soul mate. He is the most kind and considerate man I have ever met. He is also a wonderful father. When we are out in public, I feel so proud to have him on my arm. He buys me flowers for no reason, helps out with the housework, encourages me with my passions and interests. He is so romantic and passionate yet he also knows how to just sit and goof around with me like a buddy. He knows my every secret, my every flaw, my every quirk, and still loves me unconditionally. Whatever obstacle I face, I know that I will have his support and encouragement.

The Future:

I no longer fear the future. While the uncertainty of what tomorrow will bring used to make my heart beat with fear, now it beats with excitement. I know that whatever comes our way, both good or bad, we will come out of it with a determination to continue on together. Our hands are clasped but our hearts are intertwined. I never really understood the quote from Browning's poem until now: Grow old along with me, the best to come is yet to be.

I love you, my Knight.


The first song we danced to as husband and wife.

Two Wonderful Years

Happy Anniversary to Me!

Well today marks my two year anniversary into Blogdom.

I started out on AOL blogs. My first post ever was on February 15th, 2005. The Mermaid was 5 months old and we were living in our old apartment.

I've been through a lot since then. I've posted about how frustrating it is to be a full-time Student and a full-time Mommy at the same time....I have total respect for those mothers who work full time while trying to raise children. I've posted through moving into our current residence. Thanks to blogging, with one click I can relive the Mermaid's baptism....her first steps....her first birthday....her first cloth diaper ;o). I can relive our wedding, and what I felt when I finally graduated school. About when I found out when I was pregnant with the Guppy. And of course, the Guppy's birth.

In my opinion, there has been a definite change in my posting style. I've gone from posting daily occurrences to posting more of my thoughts and feelings and what is in the news. From "today we..." to "This is why I cosleep/breastfeed/cloth diaper....". I don't know if it's because I have more time to explore how I feel about current events and parenting now that I am not in school, or if my interests just became more passionate and more of a part of my life than it was.

As I was quickly scanning over the past two years of my life, I realized that I am a very lucky woman. I have an education. I have a dear sweet husband who treats me like a queen. I have two beautiful, healthy daughters. I have a future filled with possibilities. And although I may have some regrets, like I wish I had had a homebirth with the Mermaid, or I wish I had used cloth diapers from the beginning, all in all, I'm happy with the way things have turned out.

Here's to the upcoming years. I hope they are as fulfilling and as happy as these past two years have been.

Happy Anniversary to Me!